Good morning loves !
How has everyone been?!
Unfortunately these past few weeks I’ve been dealing with some serious anxiety attacks and still dealing with overcoming my body dysmorphia.
What is body dysmorphia ?
Well it is a mental disorder in which you can’t stop thinking about one or more perceived defects or flaws in your appearance — a flaw that, to others, is either minor or not observable.
But you may feel so ashamed and anxious that you may avoid many social situations.
I’ve always struggled with this since the age of 12 I would say . I always compared myself to others , wondering why I wasn’t as “skinny” or as “perfect ” as others .
Being 25 now and living in a world where social media is the main source of “inspiration ” and “aspiration “, I find myself always comparing again .
It’s not something I want to do but it just takes over your body and you sit and dwell as to why you can’t be perfect , when in reality nothing is wrong with My appearance.
I have been trying so hard to make sure I say I love the way I look or practice small steps into self love like yoga , or reading feel good books because
1. I have a daughter who I hope never feels what I have felt .
2. I need to be the best version of my self for me and her .
The other night I almost cried my self to sleep as I was trying on Savannah’s two piece bathing suit she started to suck her belly in ? She’s only TWO.
Eric and I both looked at Each other and back at her and said what are you doing ?
Do you not like the bathing suit ?
She said ” I don’t like my belly ”
We said why ?
She said ” it’s too big “???
I just about bawled .
We told her honey, your belly is perfect and nothing is wrong with having a big belly AT ALL .
It is now my everyday goal to make sure we tell her how perfect she is and how much we love her belly .
This showed me just how much I am impacting her , when she hears me talking down on myself she’s learning that it’s okay to do so when In fact it’s the complete opposite, We are to rise ourselves up and make sure we feel our very best and if we don’t it’s okay to seek help.
Mama’s please always remember no matter your child’s age they are listening and looking up to everything you say and do .
Even if it’s something minor like how I say I look so fat in this -because that stuck with her .
I am so grateful that she is so caring and kind because she is ALWAYS telling me I’m beautiful & gorgeous.
How is it that my two year old teaches me more about myself and life than I have ever imagined.
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She absolutely Loves doing yoga ❤️
It’s actually so sweet if you saw my insta stories the other day when she was doing yoga with my mom , it was the cutest thing ever.!!
Thank you for reading !